Hard day

It was bound to happen.  With all the changes going on, emotionally, hormonally, physically (you name it) I was bound to hit bottom sometime... and that day came.  Poor Norah has had a stuffy nose so she hadn't been sleeping real well, and this particular night she was awake every 45 minutes.  Which meant I got less than 3 hours of sleep, and those 3 hrs weren't all at once.  So I was pretty dead when the morning came and the older two got up rather early.  And there is that tired that hits that actually physically hurts... and that's where I was.  The kids weren't behaving poorly, but enough that I was on my last nerve.

Gaetan could tell that things weren't going so well so he took the kids out but before I had a meltdown in front of them.  Its just hard when the kids are upset with every little thing because they are tired from not being in their own space and the obvious, there is another child in the picture!  They are always in much better spirits when they can get out of the house too, so it seemed like the best option for everyone.

I have to say that I couldn't contain my tiredness and emotional up and down... I melted.  Luckily for me I have a Mom who understands it and better yet knows what helps.  After I blubbed for quite some time and she just listened intently we talked for a few hours.  About everything.  It was nice just sitting and talking... and even though I didn't get to leave the house it was like leaving the house in a way.  She understood what it was like be cooped up and be worried about the first time leaving... the stress of having small children who are at that age of 2's... and being tired tired tired.  I am lucky enough to have help in cooking meals, clean up, watching the kids, laundry and making sure that they don't kill each other.

After our talk and just hanging out I felt much better.  The kids seemed like they had a ton of fun and where happy when they came home.  (Will write about it later).  Being a new Momma (again!) is such a blessing but of course will have its ups and downs.  Looking forward to running on all cylinders to combat all life has for us!

JVG