Hormones

WARNING: This may contain talk of which you might find unfavorable, so ye be warned!

Its been about 2 months now since I restarted having my period again.  With Tristan I got it again after he was about 9 months and the same with Lucy.  I guess it started when they started to eat more solid food and not as much nursing, even though she still does nurse a little bit.  HOWEVER, I feel like my body doesn't know how to handle the hormones yet, or my hormones are out of whack.

I don't remember being a big ball of crazy when I would ovulate (you know, two weeks before you actually menstrate) but it's horrible now.  It's like I have this out of body experience and can see that I'm being extra strength crazy and there isn't anything I can do about it.  Sometimes I can feel it coming on, and I can stop it, for the most part, but other times it just flies.  And I guess I would say that it's mostly directed towards Gaetan (poor man) and never the kids.  And he and I have talked about it, so he knows whats going on, but it still isn't fair and it sucks.

I used to think that people would make excuses for their horrible attitudes, but hormones are a crazy thing.  I worry sometimes that I'm going to be like this forever... which I just can't have.  There is no excuse for it, and since I'm aware of it, I can try to focus more on not letting it happen, but its so strange that it does happen to me now.  I have read/heard about woman who go through menopause and how they are sometimes crazy, and we actually had a family friend do that, so I know that it's not just an excuse that people use... which is scary too.  Luckily for me I know that Gaetan keeps me in check, and wouldn't ever let it get to out of hand.

Another weird thing that happened since I started my cycle again is that I get sick everytime I'm about to menstrate.  It's annoying.  I feel like I'm sick all the time... and I'm not sure if its a combo of the kids being sick, me running a ton, and my body not being used to the hormones, but its crazy!  I'm hoping that my body figures it out quick so I don't have to go through crazy sick girl once a month for a long time.

JVG