Feeling... blah

So it's almost been 2 weeks since Baby Lucy has been extracted. I knew that c-section recovery time was going to take a bit, and really it's been going really well.  I feel good and I've stopped taking the heavier of my pain meds.  However... I still feel a bit useless.  I've been watching my Mom, Dad and wonderful Husband work their tails off around me while I sleep on the couch and don't do much.  I know that I need to rest fully before I do stuff so that I don't prolong the recovery time... it's just hard feeling like you don't contribute...

However, today my new nursing shirt came in the mail!  Gaetan and Bugga went out running errands last week and they ordered me one :)  It's wonderful.  Very comfy and it fits already!  I did get a chance to go outside with Bugga for a little bit today, which was nice.  Because I got out of the house, and it gave me a chance to hang out with Bugga.  Which is a feat in itself lately. 

Ever since I've come home from the hospital he's wanted nothing to do with me.  I understand that he was upset that I was gone for a few days and whenever Gaetan came home to put him to sleep while we were in the hospital he wasn't very thrilled about it at first.  But Bugga is definitely making me pay for being gone.  He won't even sit on the couch and read books with me... has to be with Grandma or Gaetan.  I know it will get better when I can start taking care of him more without Mom's help... but for right now it stings.  And I know that he goes through phases, but its still hard when you wanna play or cuddle and he goes screaming and crying out of the room.  So I am praying that I can keep my spirits high, and rest up so that I can be back to normal.

I did get to make dinner tonight also, which was nice to do for my family.  I have my 2 week incision check up on Friday... hope all things go well!  I'm hoping the Dr will tell me that I can do stairs so I can go upstairs and sleep in the same bed with Gaetan.  Things will be better then.  :)

JVG