Momma Pains

I have been a bit emotional lately, which might be an understatement.  It probably doesn't help that a good friend of mine was blogging about a family she's been following that has had their shares of ups and down.

Their little boy (about 2 now) is battling neuroblastoma, which is there no cure for.  They caught it when he was 13 months old and he was doing well, but then it came back.  Right now they are fighting for his life...  To top it off while they were fighting his cancer the first time they found out they were pregnant with twins.  Unfortunately she delivered early and lost one of them, and the other one had serious complications.  ::sigh::  :( :(  I started reading their blog and was just completely overcome with sadness and grief for them.  Even though they are an amazing family of faith and know that God is taking care of them each step of the way, I just couldn't help but think how would I handle this if it happened to Tristan?  or, would my faith be strong enough like their's is?  I have spent a good deal crying everytime I think of them, and everytime I do think of them I pray for them.  The Dad blogged something very recently about how this blog isn't to get you to pity them, but to realize that our time here is so temporary and SHORT.  To help people we come into contact with everyday and make this world a better place, especially when it means you have to sacrifice.  Their story is a story of hope and how we should rejoice in knowing that Jesus has already paid the way for our exit out of this world.  Now the question remains... What are we doing with this precious gift of time that He's given us?

I am praying that God will reveal what He wants me to learn from this and that I can get over my selfish little thoughts about how this story makes me feel sad.  I hope that he takes my passionate Momma-love and is able to use it for His good and glory, and that I would be obedient enough to listen and do it.

JVG